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When I was pregnant with my son, I had absolutely awful headaches from about 8 weeks to 4 or 5 months. Early in my pregnancy, I felt one coming on, and did nothing about it because I'd been forbidden ibuprofen and acetaminophen is, as far as my body is concerned, about as useful as a sugar pill. It got so bad that I ended up sitting on the toilet lid crying and clutching my stuffed monkey for dear life. I eventually fell asleep, but the next morning it started coming back. So my wonderful darling husband took me to urgent care and I spent 3 hours attached to a Benadryl IV, feeling very very drugged, but also very very painless. I then slept the rest of the day.

The whole point of that story is that, I haven't had any real problems with headaches thus far, and rather naively assumed that I wouldn't. HAH. Around 10 this morning I got a painful spot on my forehead, that has since intensified, moved backward, and keeps throbbing. If I stay still, it's fairly bearable. Just now I got up to rescue the cat from the bedroom and it felt like someone had clocked me with a 2x4. Not fun.

It doesn't help that my lovely son has been particularly irascible lately.

Good news (sort of)- I have a job now. It's 19.5 hours a week, working as a TA in a special ed preschool. This is a completely foreign arena to me, and I'm a little intimidated. I've never worked in a school environment before, and 3 to 5 year olds is certainly not the age group I envisioned myself teaching once I get my degree. Of course said degree is not yet attained, and we is broke, so I'll do what I can. I have to get fingerprinted. Fun stuff.

I have not yet made an OB/GYN appointment, because I don't know yet if we're getting insurance assistance. I don't want to need it, believe me, but we need it. My husband makes $10/hr, and I will be about the same but half the hours, and anyway we can't get work coverage until February. I applied for Medicaid and still haven't heard back, and it's making me a little bit paranoid. If we have to scrounge up the money ourselves, so be it, but I'd like to know one way or the other so we can get things going already. I'm pretty sure I need to see a doctor soon.

Right now life is just... difficult. I know I tend to have kind a dark tone, and I swear it's just the situation, plus this is where I rant about things I don't yet want to tell my friends. Normally I'm quite cheerful and fun. I swear. Of course the migraine puts a damper on things, though.